I’m sooo……….right now. Know what I mean? Its just sooo indesribale. Theres so many new things happeing in my life right now. All of these things I’ve wanted for soo long…..but I don’t know…nothings how I imagined it.
Im living in halls of residence now with a bunch of people that make me feel like Cady from mean girls…it really sux….sometimes I feel so alone and bored.
And to make matters worse I feel sick, and this isn’t a regular kind of sick…it’s the I cant eat, becausei have butterflies…my stomach feels like its doing somersaults kind of sick….also known as lovesick!
You would think that would be a good thing, but I don’t have the bets track record….i fall for fools and date complete twats!!!! Urgh…is this one going to be the same? Is he gay? Does he have a girlfriend….all of this shit is running around my head and I feel like im going to IMPLODE!!!!

I feel like im still trying to find myself and that’s the reason for the word chameleon in the title. Sometimes I feel like I act a certain way to fit in with a group because I know that they’ll never like the real me. And then I gets to thinking….well who is the real me….maybe the real me is the chameleon and then I get confused.

Urgh…..well this blog was basically, extremely BLAH!!! So yeah….im guna go contemplate a few things now and yeh…..thats about it!!